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Entry : 24
Feelings Fu*king ANGRY

Tigers and Dragons(Chinese Zodiac) can NEVER co-exist!
I give in to him in almost everything today.
AND HE ACTUALLY REFUSE TO LET ME USE HIS LAPTOP AND RESULT IN ME DROPPING MY HEADPHONES WHICH COST $20!
IT IS A GIFT TO ME FOR THE RESULTS I GET IN PSLE SIA!
HATED HIM! WILL ANYONE BE SO STUPID TO PUT HEADPHONES AT THE EDGE OF A TABLE?!
IF HE LET ME USE HIS LAPTOP, I WOULDN'T HAVE DROPPED IT!
IF HE DIDN'T PUT IT AT THE EDGE OF THE TABLE, I WOULDN'T HAVE DROPPED IT!


Entry : 23
Feelings : Happy

Mum can't stand him being so old yet sleeping in the Master Bedroom with her.
She discussed with Dad and decided to move his bed to my Granny's room.
A lot of work today. Helped him to clean his study table at $1 charge =.="
Treated Mum + Dad dinner. Also dunno for what.. Nothing special today also..
Haiz... Wasted my money..


Entry : 22
Feelings : Happy

Li Min, Hui Min, Yong Sheng is back...!
XD!! I mean as in active in FB/MSN.
It feels so good to see them active again..! XD


Entry : 21
Feelings : Confused. Scared.

Just about 15 minutes ago, I was in the Toilet, doing something.(Allow me to have a secret..)
And when I make my way there, I heard my parents in the Master-Bedroom talking about something quite loudly.
And when I finished doing my "something", I saw my mum crying.
Confused and scared, I didn't ask what happened and quickly rushed back to my bedroom. Curious about what happened, I didn't close my door.
Then my dad came out and said something like this : “现在啊。。！ 小的都比妈妈大了！” And then talked alot more about parents take care child and child being ungrateful. I've also heard something like this : “现在朋友比妈妈大啦！。。” Didn't know if its like this, but should be something like this.
And something I'm confused about is.. Who is my dad talking to?
Mum? Quite Impossible, she's in the kitchen and my dad is in the living room. Judging from the tone of his voice, he should be very angry but the volume isn't really that loud..(So they shouldn't be quarreling)
Him? Quite Impossible, he's sleeping(I think) and the volume of my dad's voice shouldn't be able to reach him and my dad won't be that stupid to not know.
Granny? Quite Impossible, he could just go into my granny's room and tell her.
Me? Quite Impossible, he didn't see me so I should be "sleeping"..
Talking to himself? Nah, he's not so.. Its just not his style..
On the phone? Nah, based on what he's talking about, there shouldn't be any reply.

Anyways, the highest possible person is me and him. But.. who is it? He didn't seem to have quarreled with my dad.. Maybe before that? When they are in the coffee shop? But my granny should have told me.. Me?? What I did to anger them days ago doesn't really involves "Parents VS Friends"..
Aigoo..! Someone so clever like me actually can't figure out the person my dad is talking to.. And what is going on.. Arsh... My brain is cracking into 2..!


Entry : 20
Feelings : Upset

For 3 days, it seems like life in hell.
Nothing can amuse me at all.
Other than eat, sleep, the only other thing I did is watch TV.
Using the computer doesn't really help to kill time..
Hated it.....
No one can understand my feelings right now, can they?
They don't have the family I have, nor the friends I have..
They won't ever understand me..
They won't..


Entry : 19
Feelings : Upset

Realized only today.
I.. don't really have friends.
Yeah, I know, everyone who is able to view this post is one of my friends.
But, most of you.. I can't talk to you about my personal things.
"Personal issues/problems". When you heard/see this, you should have thought of Adults and Seniors right?
Yeah, that's what I thought of too.
Adults.. family? No way, their not on my side, they'll only reprimand me.. No use.
Teachers? Holidays now.
Seniors. All in sec.. Obvious.. Best seniors are Amanda and Amirah.. But they both.. I guessed we had stop contacting each other.
Juniors? Same.. Lost contact for quite awhile.. L. Li Min, Hui Min, Qian Hui..
Best friends? T. Li Min?
I used to have quite a few good friends to share my sorrows and happiness with.
1st : Weng Yee. But one a unlucky day, she told me she don't wanna be friends with me anymore..
2nd : Rachel. But on a unlucky day, my mum told her mum about something she shouldn't say. Thus Rach, and my 3rd (Shu Hui), have both separated from me..
The only friends I have left is all my online friends.
Jies. They somehow drifted away from me..
Kors, haven't been online lately.
Papa, Ah Gong and Ah Ma somehow "disappeared".
Am i really a piece of unwanted, useless trash?
Am i really that hopeless?
I miss those days which are so innocent.. When each time i reach school i open up my books and be a nerd. When i have totally no friends. At least.. It doesn't hurt so much as compared to now..


Entry : 18
Feelings : Confused & Upset

1 and a half day since I last talked to my Mum.
Don't feel like starting a conversation with her.
It wouldn't matter to her whether I talk to her or not anyways.. She have a good son what.
A good son who bring his friends to areas they shouldn't be at during school hours.
A good son who bully me since young.
A good son who learnt how to set people up.
People might think I'm a cruel person when it comes to Friendship and Kinship.
For friendship, you might see me shouting at my friends often.
Thats mostly because I'm on duty.
For kinship, have anyone cared about me?
My 3 uncles. 1st one is too busy with wife and children. Another 1 always think that being older should respect and love the younger ones (Like he did those to me. Take LiMin/QianHui for an example, I always respect them and treat them like my own sisters! They share their sorrows,happiness and thoughts with me. They respected me. They lighten up my life, but Him? Urg!). And the last one, although he like me very much, when it comes to me and Him, he'll just keep quiet.
Grandma is siding with her "Zhang Sun"
Parents with Him..
................ What do i do now...


Entry : 17
Feelings : Dead

When he does things to anger me, they will think that I'm at fault first and ignore the whole thing.
But when I did things to hurt him or rather, to take revenge (or accident), they will immediately raise their voices and scold me.
I know why. I'm the first kid in that generation. If I'm a boy, or should I say, if I'm not in this world, he would have been the first male kid in that generation. In other words, "zhang sun". And they would gain more "power" in the family. They probably dislike me for this reason.
Anyways, he angered me that day so much I think he is being very disrespectful. So I changed his MapleStory password. He couldn't access into his account and told them about it. And I got scoldings. But I'm determined in this plan so insist on not changing back.
Got infected by his fever and was a little sick today. Requested to stay at home and not go to the CCA Colours thingy. They immediately scolded me and say I'm just a useless piece of trash. Did they even think of what I feel? Aren't they even curious why I don't want to go? Did they show concern?
Why am I born in such a family..? I feel so like leaving this world immediately...
I'm tired of such life..


Entry : 16
Feelings : Fun

Today LR changed! Lol.
Requested by me, and agreed by the following :
Kai Ning and Xuan Rong.
LOL surprised? Well kind of tired holding on to the file and i know Xuan and Kai are also tired with their current duty. To cheer them up(& to make myself more comfortable), i requested to change duty with them. And they agreed! =)
Gave 2 bracelet to Li Min, asked her to keep 1 for Hui Min.
Haiz.. can't find the other LiMin and Qian Hui around..
......
But.. ITS STILL A FUN DAY!!!


Entry : 15
Feelings : Tired, Happy

Morning duty again. And today's Recess Duty almost made my Throat become sore again. Shouted so loud at the Hall.
After that eat fast fast go back to Lab 3.
Chiong Blog.
At 12 people all zao back to MTL Class left abit people inside doing the Blogging. Both Uniformed Group CCA stayed back till 12.30pm and went back home straight.
Went to LiMin's house at around 2.30pm.
Do do the Blog and watch Videos.
After that they went down to play but 'cos my Gastric pain didn't play with them.
Acted  that I'm okay but don't know if Li Min and his Brother know I'm faking anot..
Hope didn't notice =)


Entry : 14
Feelings Happy Happy & Sien Sien

Today when doing Morning Duty, saw Miss Sarah and went to ask her about today's Packing Of Cookies schedule. When done, went to talk to Mr Tan about the Blogging Competition timing. And conclusion is : After Blogging then can go Pack Cookies! Haiz... Waste time.. Anyways, told Miss Sarah and she made me go find other Pri 6 Brownies to help her as Li Min and I will be late by 1.5hours and there are over Thousands tins! So, find find find and Heng heng heng, found 4(Beg lai de!).

Recess - Recess Duty. After that gobble down food. Run up to Lab and begin Blogging. Li Min and Elna keep laughing and talking when I doing the work. Tell them keep quiet they don't listen =.=" Then when they do I make little noises they scold me =.="

After Blogging dash down to Miss Sarah & Miss Sin. Helped to Pack according to Classes. While all of us are packing and labeling(Class), Miss Sin and Miss Sarah went to check every box(Class) to see if the amount is correct. When done, they deliver to upstairs.

Pack finish liao at 1.20. Reached target! Miss Sarah came down at 1.35. After doing final check for Excellence Level (Pack finish but not yet delivered), We loaded the Boxes on a Trolley and sent it up. At 2.15, all the work were done and Miss Sarah decided to buy us Lunch - MC Donald. But MC say must wait till 3.30 or earlier so We all went to the Library and its Closed! =.=" Settled down outside (The small "Hall/Theatre"). Played Uno when ZiYing's phone suddenly rung. When hung up she shouted "Lunch is Ready!! Go down!!" Chiong arh! To the Lift! (MUAHAHA! Did I mention I'm a bad student? Lol)

Finished eating at 3.20(Started at 3) & Danica(if spelling mistake mai scold me) bought a ball to play. Twice it rolled into the Field which is Locked. And twice our Juniors jumped in to take. =) Cool right? 'Cos all of us have a kind face marh =P Lol. So play play play until 4.

Went home. Aiyo.. Mum somemore come discuss his son de Report Card with me.. Haiyo.. I damn tired sia.. When finished, on Com awhile aiyo, tired sia, Off, Sleep. Ask Dad wake me at 7(It was around 6 then) but he didn't wake! Now at 1am, I'm wide awake playing com! =.=" Tmr sure get scolding.


Entry : 13
Feelings : Emo-ing

Sienz.. Ppl all on MSN/Fb but all busy with some things..
Morning - Tired
Noon - Sienz
Evening - Happy
Now - Xiao Xiao

Haiz.. Emo-ing


Entry : 12
Feelings : Emotional

Emo-ing. The Blogging sucks! Cannot use Blogger is bad enough but what's worst do you know? Cannot use Blogskins.com the Skin nor HTML codes!
Use what you know? Hahaha, you'll never guess it.
CanberraLive portal! IT SUCKS! Cannot use this Cannot use that! Things you used are totally limited! And almost all CCA de Blog is likdat!!! How to win likdat?! How to be different from others?! ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!! SAI!!!

Miss Sin called for me to stay back on Monday to pack the Cookies!! HAPPY HAPPY!!!

Told you I'm Emo-ing le, so NO NEGATIVE COMMENTS!

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